I feel like I'm supposed to be your mom. Is it too soon to feel this way? I don't think there is a handbook on this sort of thing, so I'm not sure. But who can tell you how you feel? They aren't here in my heart. I didn't think this would happen. I mean, I knew we'd get a kiddo from foster care at some point. I knew we'd attempt to adopt if we felt the situation fit and the time came. I just didn't imagine it would be this easy! Aside from a few health issues, this has been a breeze so far. In just a mere 6 weeks you have become a little part of our family. Randall loves you and you are his "Sissy". He is always concerned about what you are doing and where you are. Abigail hugs you all the time, and rubs your head if you cry. She gives you your binky when it falls and sometimes tries to steal it. You two will be thick as thieves. They both love that you are here with us. We all do.
We are still waiting for more answers about when we will be able to call you ours forever. Good things come to those who wait, right?
We are so excited to adopt you. We are willing to offer an open adoption to your tummy mom. Some people might not think this is a good thing. We feel that she is a part of your identity. We never want to keep you form knowing your past, because that is a part of who you are. We will not keep you from knowing your tummy mom.
We want you to know that you were not 'not wanted'. Your tummy mom knew she wasn't able to give you everything you need in life. We wanted you, prayed for you and dreamed of you. You were very much so wanted by us! Please know that you are loved!
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Oh my goodness, girl, I read this and it opened up the flood-gates. As an adoptee I fought with feelings of abandonment growing up. In my case it was a closed adoption and as a child I didn't understand. L is very blessed to have you in her life and to be so very loved. I think it's wonderful how you have been able to put words to the tremendous feelings here. I hope she is able to read this one day. You are making a difference in her life. God only knows whether it's for a little while or forever, but she will forever be in your heart & you in hers.
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